Happy new year! We’re at the end of January, another “unprecedented” year behind us. Nonetheless, I think often of how much of what we’ve experienced these past few years has, in fact, been precedented. Having spent a month in 2023 already, it’s clear that the world is continuing with the same ebb and flow. This is not to say that there is no hope for change. However, you won’t hear me saying “new year, new me” with any kind of seriousness. I do not subscribe to that belief system. We are always growing and changing into different versions of ourselves. This is not simply because of the turning of a clock. I am the same person I have always been. Yet I am utterly unlike the self I was five, ten, and fifteen years ago.
Birds flying high, you know how I feel
I have a very intense fear of heights. But the thing about having a fear of heights, is that having a fear of heights is not about the fear of being up high, it is about the fear of falling. It is the fear of having nothing to catch you. I have dreams of being in the body of a bird, of flying, and in those dreams I have no fear of falling because I will catch myself on my wings. It is the plummeting crash that I fear. The view from up high is amazing, the fear is the potential to fall.
It’s funny how life can surprise you. There are so many things that have happened in my life that I regret. Alongside them are things that I do not regret, though some people might think I should. And as I think about where I am going, what paths I am taking forward, I sometimes wonder […]
It is November and that means NaNoWriMo has come around once more. It has been eleven years since I participated in my first NaNo in 2010, and I like to think I have improved a great deal as a writer since that truly egregious novel that I wrote as a teenager and that hopefully never […]
When I was younger, I was incredibly shy about how much I loved fanfiction. Ashamed even. Reading and writing fanfiction were solitary activities, and I hid anything having to do with them from all but my closest friends. I became more open about my love of fanfiction and began to blend my identity as a […]
2020 “won” but there is no competition when a new year has come 2020 was a year full of loss, on both a personal and global scale. The Covid-19 pandemic has reshaped the entire world, and how humanity moves forward from this point will never be the same. One popular meme claims that there was […]
“Values don’t matter unless they describe behaviors and people are held accountable for them.” @PaulSchmitz1 Those words have been echoing in my brain ever since I attended the AADO-CASE Conference on Diverse Philanthropy and Leadership last week. What do I value? Where do I spend my time? Who do I spend my time with? Thinking […]
Part I: Personal Reflection 2019 came with so many changes in my life it makes me dizzy just to think about them. Most of these changes aren’t really things I want to talk about with the internet, since they pertain to my personal and private life, and not all of the stories are only mine […]