This reflection was written on the twenty-fifth day of NaNoWriMo in 2020. I do not know why I do not meditate more often. I know that it would help my mental health — I always feel so much better about myself, and much more centered in general when I meditate, but for some reason I […]
Fanfiction was my solace, and my rescue, and it showed me that everything was OK. It gave me happy endings, as well as one’s that weren’t so happy, and a way to explore the darkest parts of myself with no consequence. In fanfiction I found a friend and a partner in myself and in my writing, as there were no stakes, no pressure, and yet plenty of reward. Escapism, but also family, and creation.